He sounded harsh when he called me just now. I cried. Because I feel like a failure. Always irritating him, it seems. I just wanted to make the maybe last conversation before he leaves tomorrow a happy one. But, I failed again. Minutes later, he SMS me which made me cry once more. Even though he was harsh earlier on, he still asked me to take care of myself in his message. At that time, I thought to myself, "He will be going on a long break, for his long needed rest. And yet, it seems like he is still worried about me." This makes me miss him even more. Much much more. Why??? Why we cannot live happily ever after like how I want it to be. Do you? I am already missing you terribly sweetheart.